Hunkering in

Honey was gone for most of the week.  He doesn't travel much thank heavens.  I'm kind of out of sorts when he does.  I lose all sense of time and stay up way too late.  I can't even begin to put a meal together.  It's just off.  Does that make sense? 

Fergie has a routine at bedtime.  She goes limp and acts dead...hoping with all that's in her that we won't make her go sleep in her crate.  Isn't that mean?  She's crated!  We've just always done it that way.  Well this week while Honey was gone I decided to try and have her sleep with me.  I mean look at that face...how can you say no:)  I should have though.  It didn't go well.  She woke me up in the middle of the night and I had to put her up anyway.  But we gave it a shot.

Friday night we all hunkered in.  I had the girls help me whip up some waffles and scrambled eggs for dinner and then we cuddled on the couch and watched a movie.

We popped in Pee Wee's Big Adventure.  Remember that movie??  Oh my goodness.  It's so dumb.  But I found myself laughing out loud.  This grown man, weird grown man...acting like an immature kid.  It's just too funny.  Remember..."I know you are, but what am I?" and his creepy laugh.  I had to kind of explain it to the girls.  They were like mom...he's so weird. 

I'm like ummm...I know, but it's really funny. 

(painting I got done this week for Alicia)

I'm going to continue the hunkering in theme for this week.  I have a lot of stuff I'm working on.  Trying to restock my Etsy store for Christmas...praying for some wonderful creativity to flow all over me.   It should be fun, but challenging.  I have a way of getting distracted.  I think I have adult ADHD;)

Have a blessed day.



clean slate

It's a new day.  So thankful that God gives us brand new days.  A chance to wipe our hands clean and dust off the debris...the dirt that life throws at us, and to look up and be grateful for a squeaky clean slate.  One that hasn't been written on yet.



I've been pondering what to say regarding my last post.  I will tell you that I went to that uncomfortable place...the place where reconciliation has to come.  I'd almost rather go through childbirth than do that.  I hate conflict that much.  It's one of the hardest things I think we have to face in life...being really honest with each other.  It's facing ugly truths about ourselves and sharing our inner most thoughts...not knowing how the other person will receive it.  It's scary and painful, and just plain exhausting.

We've talked and both of us have asked for forgiveness.  Real true love requires forgiveness, because we are all human...we each will inevitability hurt one another.  That's just life.  But it's the forgetting and moving on that is the really hard part and I think only time and space allows that.  So that's where I'm at.

Now can I say a big thank you to each one of you who prayed for me and left me the nicest comments.  Your words and support were like a cozy warm blanket.  I actually felt your love and understanding, and when you are in pain like that, that is what you need the most.   I wish I could give each one of you a big hug.  I truly have the best readers in the world!!

Have a blessed day.

build us back

If you've been following along for any length of time you know I share the good, bad and ugly parts of my life.  Most of it is good...really good.  I'm blessed.  But this week has been hard...ugly.  I've had a falling out with someone close to me.  I think the bigger the love the harder the fall.  Holes have been torn in the fabric of our relationship and it's really painful. 


I keep replaying the hurtful words over and over.  My mind is on overdrive going back and forth between what was said and what I want to say.  It's like a sick song that won't turn off.  And as much as I know what is right and what is true...I don't know how to go there.  Forgiveness is tricky.  The bible has a lot to say on the topic. We are commanded to forgive and do it quickly, but how do I even begin when there is so much anger and hurt??  I know that the enemy is doing a happy dance.  He's a thief and he'd love nothing more than to destroy and steal what we had. 

I listened to this song this morning while I was working out and it really ministered to me.   These are the lyrics.

Newsboys Build Us Back Lyrics:


We've been crumbled, we've been crushed

City walls have turned to dust

Broken hands and blistered feet

We walk for miles to find relief

When the thief takes, when our hopes cave

You build us back

You build us back

When the earth shakes, when the world breaks

You build us back

You build us back



We are scared, we are poor

All our safety nets are torn


We've been humbled to our knees

From these ruins, we believe



When the thief takes, when our hopes cave

You build us back

You build us back



When the earth shakes, when the world breaks

You build us back

You build us back



Redeemer, redeem us

Restorer, restore us

Oh build us back


Though the mountains be shaken, the hills be removed

Your unfailing love remains

After all that's been taken, Your promise, still sacred

You build us back with precious stones



When the thief takes, when our hopes cave

You build us back

You build us back



When the earth shakes, when the world breaks

You build us back

You build us back

Have a blessed day.

to be different

My Big Chick chose to play the trumpet this year in band.  I was kind of surprised to be honest.  All her friends are playing the flute or clarinet...something a little softer...more girlie.  As a matter of fact she's the only girl trumpet player in band.  I don't think I would have separated myself that way at her age...to follow my heart and do what I really wanted...to be different.

There is something magical about my girl.  She's confident and cool and just kind of does her own thing.  She speaks up for herself.  Doesn't seem to be intimidated by others.  I'm not sure where she gets it.  I wish I would have had some of that growing up.  It can take a lifetime to learn those things and she's got it now. 

It makes me so proud of her.  I can't wait to see what other surprises she has up her sleeve...what else she can teach me:)

Have a blessed day.