Life is weird. I'm sitting on the good side right now. Everything is going pretty smoothly. I'm not in a valley. There isn't any major drama going on. No one's sick. We are provided for. The bills are being met. Happiness and joy abound in our house.
I'm hesitant to even type that. Like some giant shoe might drop, but I know better. Each one of my immediate family members has something they are praying for...believing for. But it seems minor in the big scheme of things. We are blessed.
But it seems that most of my close peeps are in major crisis mode. I've written about it a lot lately. SO MANY around me are struggling. We are talking major disappointments. Tears on the phone...not knowing what to say...there are no words...kind of phone calls.
I found myself hesitate recently to say "I'm praying for you". Shocker I know. I just wrote a post about praying for my friends...my people...and I do. But these closest to me have heard me say it over and over and over again. I'm afraid saying it again just sounds hollow and brings light to the fact that yes...we are STILL praying and it's apparent your situation hasn't changed yet, but...
I know they are feeling forgotten. I know there has to be feelings of why God why? Why are you allowing this? Why does everything have to be SO HARD? Why can't life be easier? Why can't it all just work out ONCE!!!!!
And I feel like my words have dried up. I feel like I don't know what to say anymore. So I listen. And I say over and over again...I know. And more than anything I want to wave a magic wand and step in and fix every little thing. I want to play God. Wouldn't that be fun? To have the power to make all the pain and suffering go away. To magically make it all RIGHT again!
But in my heart...deep down in there I know there is a reason for that suffering. It doesn't make a bit of sense to me. It really doesn't, but I know there is a bigger plan. There are things going on that are only known to HIM and that has to be enough.
He promises in His word to work for our good. He promises to direct our path. He promises us a hope and a future. HE PROMISES... And even in the darkest of moments. Even when all seems lost...it's not. It's never over. You are never forgotten. Never alone, because He never lets go!
And I know that I know that even when it feels like the other side is winning... That's not how it goes down for us!!! We are HIS. He is triumphant. WE ARE TRIUMPHANT!!!! I don't need the right words. I don't have to have a magic wand or crystal clear answers. I can listen. I can be there to love, but HE is the fixer. He will do His thing. He's got this.
Be a blessing.
**All pics taken at Boone Hall Plantation in Charleston, SC with this sweet family. Parts of the Notebook were filmed here, and Ryan Reynolds and Blake Lively recently got married at the Plantation:))
blessed assurance
picnicking with friends
exploring God's earth
cotton fields
a camera that captures
friends that share the same interests
hope
