Farmgirl Paints: memory lane and lemon squares

Friday, June 29, 2012

memory lane and lemon squares

It's such an interesting mix of emotions when we go home. It's the tug of remembering...the pull of the past. We always ALWAYS walk down memory lane. I'm a sap. What can I say. I breathe deep gulping in the air, running my hands along the familar banister of home...noticing even the insignificant gravel under my feet. I take in every little thing trying to imprint it in my memory forever. I think that's why I take so many pictures. I want to keep them forever.

There is always an undertone of sadness that comes. I remember things younger...fresher. Even neighbors and friends out and about, when I run into them all I can think is how they've changed.

I see it in my parents and how they've slowed. It mellows me. Makes me a little scared. I know it's life and that's how it's supposed to be, but I don't want to think about that rushing freight train of time. I want to think it will always be like this.

That I'll always have my sweet ones near...my folks to call on. My girls hands in mine. I know I'm in my prime. These years right now are probably my finest. It's true. I don't want to waste a second. I don't want to blink or it will be gone.

I was little yesterday. I was the one running in the yard, playing in the barn. I was giggling with my friends. Not a care. I had my mom and dad to rely on for everything.

Oh to preserve and cherish...to truly appreciate our loved ones and not take any of them for granted. To fully live in the moment and not stress about the unknowns. That would be the ultimate prize right? I have to remind myself I only have grace for today. There's no need to worry and ponder the future, but still I have that nagging sadness.

I'm just not ready for change...for letting go...ever.

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As promised my mom's melt in your mouth

lemon square recipe:

Step #1 Crust:
1 cup flour
1 stick butter
1/4 cup confection sugar
(Mix together and use cookie sheet to press out firmly. Bake at 350 degrees for 20 minutes)

Step #2 Filling:
2 eggs
1 cup sugar
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
2 tablespoons lemon juice
(Mix together and pour over baked crust and bake for 20 min. Check at the end to make sure the edges don't burn.) ENJOY! This is my favorite thing my momma makes. You will LOVE it!!!