Tuesday, April 12, 2011

the maze

When I was a little girl I was completely in love with hospitals.  Weird huh?  I loved the way they smelled and how important they were.  I was in awe of the people who worked in them.  I couldn't wait until I turned 12, so I could become a candystriper.  It was my dream.  I loved putting on my little uniform.  I felt so important changing the water pitchers, making the beds and transferring patients to x-ray.  It was awesome. 





When I got in high school I started observing Occupational Therapist's and quickly decided that that's what I wanted to do with my life.  It was just the perfect health profession job for me.  No clean up or blood...hopefully.  Regular daytime hours.  Great pay.  I was sold.  I knew what I wanted.


Honey and I both went to junior college taking many of the same classes together.  About a year in we decided to get married and the rest is history.  I worked while he went to school and when he graduated I tried and tried to get into a local Occupational Therapy Assistant program.  Because I was out of the district my name was way down the list.  I tried for three years.  THREE YEARS people!  And then finally I decided to take things in my own hands.  I lied on my application form giving them a friend's address who happened to live close to the school.  I even went as far as changing my driver's license address just in case.  I was desperate.  I wanted in soooo badly. 




Not long after I mailed in the form the Holy Spirit started to convict me something awful.  The guilt of lying was just unbearable.  I couldn't get in that way and live with myself.  SO I mailed another letter, this time admitting what I had done and apologizing.  I wish I had that letter.  I wish I could see what I wrote and maybe frame it for an example of what not to do. 


Anyway that letter got me in.  My teacher was so intrigued by this strange girl and her convictions that she just had to meet me, and I was allowed an interview and then finally a position in the program!  The funny thing is I've never used my degree, but my interest in creating emerged from the projects my teacher had us work on.






There are so many more of these kinds of stories from my life.  Times where I got tired of waiting.  Times where I wanted to be in control.  Times where I screwed up and He gave me an out.  Saved me from myself.  My life...our life together has been one big example of God's hand gently moving us.  I can almost see us in a maze, blindfolded, not knowing which way to go and His hand takes us and gently moves us along the path.  He does that.  He gets us to the finish line.  It may seem like the long way around.  It may not make a bit of sense, but the lessons learned and the journey itself was worth it all at the end.  Can't wait to see what may be around the next bend.






Have a blessed day.









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42 comments:

  1. I love how God uses all things to mold and shape us into who He wants us to be.

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  2. These are words to live by. I was feeling kind of shocked that you lied on that application and then SO impressed that you told the truth. (And was blessed immediately for it--yay!)

    I love those birdies, too! ;)

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  3. i'm too choked up to even write a decent comment...you read my mind. so tired of waiting.
    i want to be in control, but i know that my ways aren't His ways.

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  4. You are amazing, both in your deception and in your confession. I am in awe of you. God Bless You, you know He doesn't even remember this incident. He remembers YOU!!!

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  5. Fascinating : )
    I am glad your letter got you in! It shows that you are very determined!

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  6. That's a great story, Becky. xx

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  7. LOVE this post. LOVE hearing your fire for what you know what you wanted. Thanks so much for sharing... It's inspiring! I can't wait till the next corner either.

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  8. Becky~ LOVE this story! I'm so proud of you for humbling yourself and admitting the truth~

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  9. i love how you share your heart and honesty.

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  10. Awwww, I love your story Beckie. God is so amazing isn't He?

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  11. We don't always get what we want...but we do get what we need.

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  12. I love this post, Becky. So grateful for the Holy Spirit's sweetness to help me recognize my stupidity . . . and love your sweet heart, to write a letter to apologize.

    Fondly,
    Glenda

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  13. That is SO funny that you got in by writing a confession letter! ;D Isn't it funny how God works in our lives?

    Thank you so much for your sweet comment on my blog the other day, it really made my day and encouraged me greatly. :) I often feel very alone in my current position, and it's nice to see someone who has been here, and knows what it's like to wait, and what it's like to reach the next "stage" in life after having to wait. Your posts are so uplifting, thank you for being positive and sharing those positive thoughts with all of us! I am an avid reader of your blog, it's nice to find a kindred spirit somewhere out there!

    Thank you, I hope you have a great day!

    ~Just a Girl

    p.s. My husband and I met and married in almost the SAME circumstances! We went to school together for one year, and as you say, the rest is history. XD

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  14. Just to clarify...we actually met and started dating in high school and then married after our first year of college.

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  15. I haven't really been reading blogs for the last couple of weeks, but this post caught my attention. I hate hospitals, but absolutely appreciate the people who are drawn to work in them. My mom is an R.N. and my oldest brother is currently in critical condition in a Neuro-ICU in Seattle. He's really sick and we don't know what is going to happen. We lost my dad to brain cancer...so, yeah...hospitals are definitely not my favorite place to be.

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  16. oh, i SO get this...we're in the thick of the maze for sure...lately i feel like we keep hitting dead end, after dead end...but i know He's right there with us.

    loved hearing your story - what a neat turn it ended up taking...do you think you'll ever use that degree? :)

    2 of my friends are O.T.'s and they both just work 2 Saturdays a month - WOW! :)

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  17. I love your honesty...and determination:)

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  18. Makes me think of the best definition of redemption I have ever heard "when God takes things that never should have been and makes them integral parts of the plan." He's so brilliant. Thank you for baring this story. I love seeing how He worked through your mistake as well as your amends.

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  19. That is a story about you you need to share with your little chicks some day. A great example of living your life as an example.

    I love the birdie picture - so sweet.

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  20. i love how God directs our steps as we live in obedience to His word. it's amazing what freedom there is in obeying! and oh my goodness... such gorgeous paintings. i ADORE your style and skills. i could never say that enough. the 1st one is my fave.

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  21. I love your heart girl. You are a keeper!

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  22. love this and love the art...especially the last one with the jetstream (it's called a jetstream, right? lol) and the banner. :) Love.

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  23. This one made me cry. I love how he took your shame and turned it into His glory. Incredible. I am endlessly in awe.

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  24. this is getting crazy weird..I used to want to be a candy striper...and then a nurse. Neither of which happened. Instead I got married way to young..had lots of children and JUST NOW...wondering if any of my dreams are going to come to fruition and like you...wondering what is around the next bend. I have realized that I have done many things ..trying to make them happen on my own. NOW, praying for grace to wait and let Him open up life. I LOVE the paintings..you have such a beautiful gift girl:)
    a wednesday full of grace for you friend..
    xo

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  25. Ahhh you are a blessing and you blessed me this morning .
    I have some stories too where He showed me His way and it turned out for the good..it always does.
    Thanks for sharing Becky...love your beautiful designs here..so sweet!

    Deborah xoxo

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  26. Fantastic story - our God is so good! *heart*

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  27. Life has such an interesting way of pushing and poking you along in a certain direction - sometimes I think it's just about making a decision and running with it however big or small. Your journey from OT to artist sounds very much like one of those things

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  28. wow. our God is a Good God! Kudos for you. Admitting what you did and apologizing takes a whole lot of courage and look where it got you! In the program and every little bit made you who you are today.

    I'm in one of those crossroads, where I just don't know where God will lead me next. But wherever He leads me, I know it will be where I need to be.

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  29. Wow-- I love the story, your life and convictions... and how God used your honesty to inspire someone else... Love it.
    We all make mistakes, but we don't all own up to them. You're setting an amazing example.

    Love the paintings, too!

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  30. How sweet and darling you are for sending that letter admitting you lied! Wonderful morals you have and are instilling in your girls!

    Funny, I was a candy striper and I too wanted to work in OT! I got a job working in Physical Therapy and OT and then sports medicine. I realized that only one of us could finish school. So I decided to hold down three jobs while my husband finished med school and then residency. Maybe one day I'll go back. I love how you chased your dream!

    I hope to find mine soon!

    Thanks for the inspiration as always!

    Megan

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  31. I needed this really badly today. You have no idea how much.

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  32. you are so darn cute- i loved your story but mostly the words you left us with. thank you for sharing your heart and truth.

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  33. Saving me from myself may be one of the best things God has done for me...again and again.

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  34. What a nice story Becky. I often think about the twist and turns of life and how something I'm doing right now might be preparing me for something God has planned for me later.

    ~Tricia

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  35. I don't know you but know already that I really like you. That was incredible! The Holy Spirit does the same with me, I can't even tear a recipe out of a magazine in a doctor's office without feeling guilty. I have done it before and then put it back! :/

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  36. I have found a wonderful spot to land. Thank you for your beautiful posts and pictures. I found you on LeeAnn's blog. I love the bracelet you made her. I also want to Choose Joy!

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  37. All I have to say is: :)

    Oh, and this: xo

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  38. Great message Becky and I love your paintings ~ especially the one of the 2 birds ~ it is one of my favorites! xo

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  39. I know it will be a
    wonderful bend in
    your journey's path,
    B!! This reminds me
    of the Rascal Flatts
    song that I love, God
    Bless the Broken Road.
    So beautiful.....Thank you!
    Sending you sunshine : )
    xx Suzanne

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  40. What a wonderful story Becky. You would have been fantastic in that field. But it looks as God had other plans for you. :) I was a candy striper when I was 13 years old. I went onto nursing school and worked in that field for a number of years until....well lets just say my life has been full of changes. :)

    Your paintings are gorgeous Becky. I love the painting you did of the two birds. They remind me of the sweet little birds that come visit us every day. :)

    Mary

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  41. You might not ever see this because you wrote this so long ago, but I am going through a season of life right now that made me think about this post you wrote years ago. I googled "farmgirl paints occupational therapy" and sure enough I found it! I just finished my masters in teaching, and am almost done with my first year of teaching. I've wanted to be a teacher FOREVER, and truly love my job. BUT I have two boys (2 1/2 and 17 months old) and I am missing them something fierce! I've got a whole new plan so that I can stay home with them, but now I'm wondering why in the world God allowed me to go to grad school and get into all that debt, just to move on to something different. Your description of it being like a maze is so accurate!! I do know that this tough caused me to grow in my relationship with Him like never before, so if nothing else, it was worth it for that! Thanks for writing :)

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