My heart hurts...literally! My parents just pulled out of the drive and I feel like someone is sitting on my chest. I always get this realization as the end of our visit nears...that this could be the last time I hug them...or tell them I love them. It's suffocating.
I hate goodbyes. I hate being separated from the people I love most in the world.
It's painful.
The house feels empty and quiet and I feel a little empty too.
So right now I'll cry and then it will lift. Thankful for that:)
When I was little my mom would tuck notes in my lunch sack. They were always "roses are red, violets are blue" rhymes. She still does it. Love that:) BTW I have something fun to look forward to tonight. I can't wait to tell you about it...yay!
Oh and thank you sweet friends for all the birthday wishes and kind words. I read several of them to my parents. They think it's just the coolest thing...that I get showered with love from all these "strangers". Of course you're not strangers to me at all;)
Have a blessed day.
Your post title scared me. I thought you were telling us goodbye!
ReplyDeleteI remember that feeling when we lived away from my family, always wishing the visits could be longer.
I don't like good-byes either...I always cry when I have to leave family behind! Hellos are so much better:) Have a good cry, sweet friend, & then remember all the love your parents give you!
ReplyDeleteI think I held my breath a moment when I read your title! It is always hard to say goodbye! I live far from family and I hate that last moment! Happy Late B-Day! Love the music playing!
ReplyDeleteYour parents are so sweet, and it looks like you had a great visit. I love your Mom's notes, what a treasure of a keepsake.
ReplyDeleteHere's something that I KNOW is going to cheer you up. I came across this blog yesterday and guess who I thought of? http://cupcakestakethecake.blogspot.com
Enjoy looking..
That is so hard to say goodbye especially to our moms and dads. Eventhough we are parents, we are still their kids, right? thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI have to go thru the same thing...my folks live 4 hours away...and I always dread Sundays...the day the leave. :(
ReplyDeleteGlad you had such a great visit...and what cute parents you have! Love the little note!
Ahhh...sending big hugs! So nice that they could come for a visit. Families are a powerful bond aren't they? I am so thankful to Father in Heaven for putting us in families to go through this life experience. My parents have both passed on and I still really miss them. There are times I so want to just call Mom and talk to her. I have not one tiny doubt that we will be together with our families for all eternity too. Come say hi :D
ReplyDeleteAwww, what a sweet note--made me tear up:)
ReplyDeleteAnd can't wait to hear about this "fun" thing!
So glad you had a lovely time with your parents:)
Well happy belated birthday!!! I'm so behind on my blogging lately...trying to get the garden going has sucked up a lot of my time!
ReplyDeleteI am blessed to live only 20 mins from my parents, so I can only imagine how hard it would be to only get visits with them now and again. I'm sure you savor every second together...
Extra hugs ~
:) T
That's really sweet...I like the little note thing. I should get in the habit - at least of doing it more often.
ReplyDeleteGood habits are hard to break.
Your parents should move nearer to you girl!! :) What are you doing tonight??? You gotta tell me!
ReplyDeleteLove ya!
Becky, I'm feeling it with you. It never gets easier parting from my parents, either. They are and have always been my ROCK and I love them so very much. When they leave us to go home, the very air in the house seems to change ~ that energy that is so very THEM evaporates and leaves me a bit down. But then I try to smile and remember the fun we had and that is consoling. Glad you have something great to look forward to tonight!
ReplyDeletexx P&H
Awww, I know exactly what you mean. My parents live 4 hrs away from me and I have the same thoughts every time they leave my house or I leave theirs. Ever since I was a little girl, I've made it a point to not say "goodbye" to people. I say "see you later" or something similar instead. I just can't say goodbye.
ReplyDeleteAnd Happy Belated Birthday! I'm a blog slacker :)
I HATE goodbyes! Hope you have fun tonight - whatever you're doing!
ReplyDeleteI would feel the same way if I had to say goodbye to my parents for a while too! big hugs my dear and remember this won't be the last time you see them...have a wonderful time tonight!! xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteI love your mom's notes! So sweet! And that is a great pic of you and her! Can't wait to hear about your fun night!
ReplyDeletexo,
Adrienen
it make me thining of my parents - they are late 70s and 60s so everytime i see my dad it feel the same way you do...trying to not cry but it is hard...
ReplyDeleteawww...that is sooo hard! :( I LOVE my parents so much. I can imagine how difficult it was to see them off! :( I hope you feel better...and glad you have something fun to do tonight!
ReplyDeletei wish somehow we could have hello's without the goodbyes!!! it's so sad to live far from family! have fun tonight... can't wait to hear what the fun is!
ReplyDeleteat least they are still alive and you can pick up the phone and have a chat :) and if you really needed to you could pick up and drive off to your mama's.
ReplyDeleteGood byes are always hard. Hope your birthday was wonderful! :)
ReplyDeleteyour parents are so young! i'm almost 30, my mom is 63 and my stepdad is 79. my dad passed away at age 66, when i was 13. i'm very close to my parents. my stepdad is having to leave his ministry position at the end of the summer, as he's not able to think the words he needs to use to preach. it's hard not to think about what you're going to do when they are gone, but it's not something i get too upset about. yes, it's sad, but when you've watched your parents live their lives, glorifying God through their ups and downs, it's hard not to be happy for them, too. i know where they're going. i'm not worried.
ReplyDeleteHow sweet is it that you love your parents so much?! I've never been further than 2 hours from mine.. but I know it would be hard.
ReplyDeleteThose notes are the cutest!
Ahhhh - That is adoreable... I hope I will have a special place in my kids' heart like that.
ReplyDeleteYour mama is so pretty.
Hugs, The Lady of the House
So much love!! You are blessed to still have them in your life... =)
ReplyDeleteMy mom passed away when my little girl was just a baby... breaks my heart that I didn't/don't get to share these years of being a mommy with my mom... =( God knows... and He holds my heart. =)
I definitely feel your pain. My hubby is in the military and we live 1100 miles from our family. I always hate to say goodbye. I always have to throw myself into a project to take my mind off of it.
ReplyDeleteI saw my daughter briefly when she was traveling through L.A. and I was there because my dearest high school friends mother was dying. I swear I have separation anxiety every time I have to say goodbye to one of my children. Tonight my youngest daughter will be coming through town on her way to Tucson from San Francisco. I think I might have to lock her in the house once she's here, so that I don't have to say goodbye!
ReplyDeleteso sorry you had to say good-bye to your parents today...such love is wonderful to witness!
ReplyDeleteYou have to remember to never say good-bye ~ it is always see you later! I do know what you mean Becky ~ the heaviness in your chest and sense of what if. It scares the crap out of me the best of times. Chin up ~ I cannot wait to hear about your plans tonight!! And the note is precious ~ I love it that your Mom is still doing it!
ReplyDeleteOh I hate goodbyes too....Beautiful post
ReplyDeleteWe are far from family too...it is so hard! Treasure that time that you had with them. I know I'm late, but Happy Birthday. Your pics from your b-day are so cute. :)
ReplyDeleteAhhh...Happy Belated Birthday, Becky!!! I'm way behind in my reading and have been opening up posts for my trip to Nebraska today. I did see your post description yesterday, though...and have been praying for you! My precious daddy has already gone to be with the Lord (I miss him everyday, but we are so comforted to know where he is!) and I can't imagine not having my mama (who wrote on all of my lunch napkins when I was little...so, I never used them and still have them) live nearby....her response to your post was, "Well, she is really blessed to have parents she misses so much." Does that make sense?
ReplyDeleteHave a beautiful day, birthday buddy!
: )
Julie M.
You are so very blessed to have such a wonderful relationship with your parents.
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful day!
I'm so sorry that your parents had to leave. I love that your Mom left you the little poem. What a wonderful,thoughtful and very sweet woman she is. I look forward to seeing your surprise. Have a wonderful day. :)
ReplyDeleteMary
Oh Becky---That is soooo hard! My mom & I are erally close too. I hope crying helped! Soemtimes it seems like that is the only thing that does :)
ReplyDeleteBecky, lovin your love for your parents and appreciate your care towards them big. And girly if you get lonely, go and look in the mirror...you have your Mamma's gentle eyes with a twinkle. Sending you soul shine, smiles and everything good so you are full of happy. Hummm I wish I had a fun song to send you so you could sing it all the day through to get those tears away. How about a phone call to your Mom and Dad and you all come up with one so you all can sing it to make sunshine big in you and your heart full of your parents love and smiles.
ReplyDeleteWhat beautiful parents you have Becky. I love the "roses are red" note idea that your momma has done and is still doing for you. That is so sweet and such a special signature thing she does for you and I'm sure others in the family.
ReplyDeleteMy hubby and I just came home from a trip to Pennsylvania where we spent time visiting my daughter, husband and our grandchildren. I cried just as we were hugging goodbye. I hate living so far from them and they will be moving in a couple months 2 more hours further away. (8 hrs) So I understand your heartache both on your side and your parents viewpoint. Precious are the times we get to spend with those we love so much!
They sure raised a beautiful soul called Becky!
Hugs,
Lee Ann